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When your a 1st time mom your literally nerves about everything.  You have no clue what could be when you have the baby and you imagine all kinds of horrible things that may be the case.  Now, I was truly blessed to have a super amazing oh so cute and smart son.  Sadly being a 1st time mom also doesnt get you listened to by the doctor.

I had found out from talking to my mom after being on this world for 27 years that my mom suffered from a condition that she wasnt sure if it was genetic or not.  There was no way for us to go back and ask my grand mother on my moms side cause she died 10 hours after my mom was born of heart failure.  This odd condition causes you the inability of ever going into labor.  She literally carried my older brother for 44 weeks till they finally said what the... and took him out.  After I learned of this I went to my OBGYN and said UMMMM could this be hareditary.  Well he insisted know. Weeks upon weeks go on and Im thinking WHEN IS THIS GOING TO END!!!  At 36 weeks my stress level was so high I was getting nose bleeds and I just couldnt function.   They had considered taking my son Aiden at 36 weeks but they changed there mind.  I suffered from high blood pressure and it was all because of the stress in my life.  Now as all of this is going on Im still saying.. UMMMM MY MOM!!! Again NOTHING to do with my mom he insisted...

I went for my 37 wk check up. I was 70% efaced. 38 wks the same.. At my 39 wk check up I for some reason was able to put on my shoes that morning, and have been leaking a lot over the past week.  My husband and I are hanging in there waiting for my water to break and NOTHING was happening.  I went to my dr and said that I thought I may have been leaking instead of my water break.  Nope no way wasnt happening I was just loosing water build up.  About 3 days later which was 2 days before my due date my son is really quiet so I went to the hospital to make sure all was ok.  The doctor on staff who I had sceen told me to call the office 1st thing Monday morning (the day he was due) and schdule for a ultrasound for them to messure is the emniotic fluids. They got me in that Tuesday.  Much to my suprise, I had none.  Now you would think ok so she goes to the hospital to have the baby and they enduce her and POP here comes baby. Not even close.  My normal dr was the one at the hospital that day.  After 20 hours of them trying with know sucess to enduce me, the nurse they assigned me and I did some talking. Holy hell I am like my mother.  She asked me why this wasnt in my chart and who my normal OB was and I told her.  For some reason she wasnt suprised.  I laid in bed taking a nap while I was having contractions every 6 minutes with absolutly know idea.  They finally saw my son was in distress.

As all of this goes on the only thing in my mind was I was right they should have taken him a week ago. Why would know one listen to me.  I wasnt just an anxous mom wanting to get it over with, I knew!  I unlike most women will never feel a contraction or ever be able to be told to push.  I will never dialate and will never be able to say "My water broke".   They finally sent me in for a C-Section. 30 min later we have baby.  He was small only 6lb 5 oz and 19" long.  The dr who checked him called him scrawny.  But thankfully I was like my mom cause if I wasnt they would have never found that is cord was rapped around his arm.

He is now 1 years old, blond with blue eyes.